Scared

So you know how you come to those crossroads in life where the decisions you make are no longer just about you. Well I don't really know about them yet either..... I am beginning to. But I feel so anxious about those decisions, because they aren't childlike anymore, they are real adult choices. They are in affect history making, and world shaping. I guess what stops me dead in my tracks is this, the meaning of life--LIFE. The fact that we were created for so much, that the God who created heaven and earth also shaped my heart. The God who made every creature calls me daughter and loves me unconditionally, and unashamedly. That is where I just have to rest, because if I can fully receive His love then I can freely give love. And if I am to be a parent some day, that is the hardest thing I will have to do, to freely love, no strings attached. Just hopes and dreams that they will know they are loved; prayers, laughter and tears that they live in that freedom, and joy in laying down my life so that death and darkness does not steal the light of their soul. Scared.....yes!

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